As a young man I went out and wrestled with the biggest, baddest problem I could find. I solved not a jot but I learned plenty. The Weapon threw the gauntlet down a the feet of poor, bedraggled human beings. It demanded some change in the nature of the spirit; something that inspires the poet.

The central dilemma of this problem was the nature of scenarios that could be developed in relation to something very real if not probably. Therefore, a stop in the flow of continuity and, so, absurdity.

Well, a young man asks, what is wrong with absurdity? It can be quite pleasurable from time to time since it removes huge amounts of responsibility from the being and signals that, perhaps, a possibility exists that didn't exist before. Perhaps we can create the world anew! This is one reason why youth is so attracted to absurdity and often wears it like an old bear skin. It hides and dances in the bear skin knowing what will meet it if it throws it off.

The world-as-it-is can penetrate deeply and disturb our sleep. The world-as-it-is rushes into the other possible lives and uses them shamelessly. A ghastly period without a doubt. The trick is to find the right relation to these huge categories that represent a world.

What would the end of the world entail? Do we boast that we can imagine such a thing? Why is consciousness so brave that it says, "ah yes, the end of he world, bring it on. I am tired of this life." If a consciousness is tired of life why doesn't it have the decency to step aside and allow life that wants to live have a chance in the mighty world?

It seems rather senseless. What does it gain a man to know the things we try to know in this world at this time? At the very least it is necessary to let it roll in and roll out and secure a relation to what rolls.

Things to do:

• Get the word count up to 10,000 or so
• REMEMBER THE MYTH----one side of the polarity.
• Make it poetic, not preachy--- use the base to transform into the rich and strange.
• This is not a plan to escape the horrors of nuclear war. It is the poetic sensibility confronting the nature of nuclear war and the presence of nuclear weapons and the belief that more weapons will come out of science that will be even more destructive.
• Some attempt at the recovery out of the bone-chilling fear, the demoralization and shit brought in by the knowledge that these things exist, etc. Yes, there are positive signs in the notes, toward the back.

4090 words to this point

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