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The crazy kid who was going to save the world could barely save himself. The crazy kid who was going to make a new world never got used to the old one. The crazy kid had plans and wrote them down in tree-lined parks when the sky was a perfect blue. And old guys were drinking from paper bags. A dudes were playing racquetball against the side of the abandoned school. And it seemed perfect to him that people would play in an abandoned school with a wide, scarred wall. "Play on, play on," he said to himself. Men and women who had been kept at the bottom and were trained to accept the bottom became either ideologues or nihilists. One day they saw all the implications of freedom in what remained of their heart and were terrified that freedom would be too large a burden since it implied such wide, profound trust. The fear that he would not measure up to the glories of freedom. That freedom would make him impotent. When a question arises the first thing to do is ask, "is it worthy the effort?"When th question is unprecedented then the thing to ask is, "what is a different way of attacking the questions?" This is especially true when the problem is attached to no particular boundary and the authority over the problem is in many different hands. It is true that the nature of power rarely changes; the content changes but not the form and that form leads to conflict and the conflict gets out of control. Observe the last sixty years of human history and see where all the machinations of diplomacy, intricate trade arrangements, and the sincere efforts to prevent conflict have failed. O Life, now pressures to manifest its full potential; potential that comes from the people and not the state. Creator of horrible chaos in youth! Chaos that leads to death; death of the spirit. You are a bitter ride youth passes through. They succeeded in making history appear very provincial. They succeeded in making people conscious of how things are tired together. Ah youth, the forces of demoralization are something to reckon with! They succeeded in making youth joy in the world, joy in the middle of great gloom. Joy in the middle of terrible facts! How precious are small acts of beauty and love! And when the new lover asked him, "What do these damn things and their menace do to you?" He answered. "It sharpened reality I will say that much. And it put me, at times, into the worst sort of pessimism. It was as if the point of the weapon was resting on the tip of my head and the destiny of the race resolved itself in some secret chamber of my mind. Fortunately I had the ability and opportunity to grow out of this and recover whatever is destroyed by profound pessimists." She wanted something from him. But before he gave it to her he said this, "I felt all of history accelerating past me. It was as though I was emptied out into nowhere will no guide so I grappled onto old and powerful guides to bring inch by inch past the insistence that the problem be solved right now."
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