Chapter 1 

"So I figured if this was going to be the last generation on Earth I was going to do whatever I wanted to do. I was going to find the secret to my own being, I was going to do the impossible. I figured if I got to that place then devil take the Earth, I was ready for anything! And you know everyting was poised for it, it was not a lie. All the mechanisms were in place, the historical reasons were fully devleoped all it would take was a word. And remember how crazy Vietnam was and how no one wanted that war yet it went on and on, a machine of death, until the culture withered away in shame. I would think about it. I would drive up to Grizzly and sit in my car and imagine the MIRV's coming in and hitting everywhere. But it wasn't that, my friend, it was the anger I felt that a few people could be the gods and end it, end all I loved, all I knew, all my family knew and loved, all that had been achieved, all the proud moments burnt to ash. And then society rears up and tells me I have to do this or that. I luaghed at it. I scorned it. You want me to what?? I would say to myself. No, you have no authroity any more. You are dead. We are all dead. And I will follow my own light and develop the way I want to. Damn you!"

David Eide
January 24, 2014